I hate having to write this post, I really do. I’ve been so overwhelmed and stressed with everything going on my life lately. Just between work, my relationship, moving, putting together a house, and trying to even think about planning a wedding. I’m incredibly overwhelmed. I feel like I have too much going on in my life, and I need to figure out what to change and focus on.
Obviously, my relationship is my number one priority. We have been dealing with long distance for way too long now, and making our house a home is a whole lot harder than I ever expected. My job keeps me away for longer than I’d like. I feel like I’m constantly traveling and living out of my suitcase – either in Wisconsin with my fiancé, in California with my family in between trips, or when I’m working and on a trip. It’s really stressful and it has definitely taken a toll on me. Work isn’t easy anymore. I’m stuck in this back and forth between working more and being away from home longer OR being home more but not being paid very much at all. I want to be a great partner, I want to help with our future family, but I also want to be present and involved in our life together. I know that she feels alone at times, and so do I.
I wish I had more than 24 hours in a day. And I just don’t. I can’t sleep much, I couldn’t tell you the last time I’ve done something fun and for myself, and no matter what I’m doing – I feel guilty for not being with my family or doing something else that’s important to me. I’ve become so overwhelmed with everything going on in my life, that I need to go back to focusing on just one thing and slowly pick other things back up when I’m ready and feel like I can handle it again.
It brings me to say, unfortunately.. that I need to take a step back from social media. Especially this blog. I wish I had the time to sit down and write all the time. I wish I could keep this up and also focus on everything else in my life, but I can’t. I don’t know when I’ll be back, I don’t know when I will be able to pick up my writing and work on this blog again. But I will be back, eventually, when the time is right. When I have a handle on my life. It might be three months, it might be six months, it might be in a year.
I’m sorry to my family and friends that have been reading my blog consistently. I promise that I will pick this up again, when I’m ready. Thank you for always supporting me.