Is it bad that I want to be protected? That I want to have someone care for me, worry about me, willing to be there through the good and bad? Does that make me weak? Does that make me seem like I’m not independent? That I can’t take care of myself?
I know how to be strong when times get tough and I feel like I can’t afford to be vulnerable. I’ve pushed away from my emotions and the thought of asking for help because I felt like it would make me look weak. Or that I couldn’t do it on my own. There were times where I would save my tears until I was laying in my bed, and I would cry myself to sleep. To be completely honest, I still do that. I’ve taken care of myself for years now, just staying quiet and suffering on the inside so no one would see just how tired I am.
Am I admitting I’m weak? Heck no. I just want someone in my corner. Someone that is loyal, kind, supportive, and protective of my well being.
Is that too much to ask?