“Picture yourself when you were five. In fact, dig out a picture of little you and tape it to your mirror. How would you treat her, feed her? How would you nurture her if you were the mother of little you? I bet you would protect her fiercely while giving her space to spread her itty-bitty wings. She’d get naps, healthy food, imagination time, and adventures into the wild. If playground bullies hurt her feelings, you’d hug her tears away and give her perspective. When tantrums or meltdowns turned her into a poltergeist, you’d demand a loving time-out in the naughty chair. From this day forward I want you to extend that same compassion to your adult self.” – Kris Carr
Does anyone read this? Is this blog helping anyone?
I know I started this blog because I wanted to help people. I wanted to help others who are going through similar situations- who are suffering and can’t figure out where they want to go in life. I know I still have a long way to go for ME to be happy and find my passions in life, and I am in no shape to be giving advice on how to overcome depression. I’m still trying to save myself from depression.
My questions is, who is reading this blog? Do you have any advice? What works, what doesn’t work, what makes you smile? Is it too dark? Is it too depressing? How can I make this better? How can I reach out to more readers?
Comment your questions, concerns, I’m completely open to changing this blog around!
BuzzFeed posted an article the other day about what depression REALLY looks like by tweeting to the hashtag #whatyoudontsee . If you or someone you know suffers (or you believe they may suffer) from depression, take a second and read this article. It just might help you or someone you love. The link is below:
“Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness yet become something beautiful.” – Toby Mac
Oh, you young sweet thing. How innocent and beautiful. You knew everything you wanted and didn’t shy away from a challenge. The entire world was there at your fingertips, and you decided what you wanted and what you didn’t.
You were the one who decided to play the piano. You wanted to. You saw someone playing and the idea just stuck in your head. After persisting for more than a year, your dad finally rented a keyboard and signed you up for lessons. Not even five years later you would have your first grand piano and dream of playing forever. You’d be so disappointed now to know that you haven’t touched a piano in months, haven’t had the time to play or even think if playing.
You couldn’t wait to grow up, to do everything you wanted to do. When someone would ask you what you wanted to do when you grew up, you knew immediately. You wanted to graduate from Washington State University, become a teacher, live in San Diego, and one day become a wife and mother. That was it. You never dreamt of being an astronaut or a rockstar. (Okay, you did have a little dream about becoming a Disney Channel star, but that’ll be our little secret. Shh!)
All you wanted was to be with your parents, you hated to see them fight. You wanted to be a big sister and FINALLY had a baby brother on the way. Who knew that becoming a big sister would eventually have you dying to have a career working with children and having kids of your own.
You never looked to others to please them. You just knew what you wanted and what you didn’t want. You wanted to do everything your own way. Remember, your first two words? “My own.” How appropriate.
You, my five year old shadow, are my hero. You are my goal. To get back to the place where I trusted, where I loved without hesitation, where I wasn’t afraid to do what I wanted to do because I knew it would make me happy. You had no problem making a decision, you didn’t worry about the consequences. You lived and you learned.
I’m sorry I’ve let you down. I promise I’m working on getting back to you, and making our dreams come true.
Return the favor.
Remember that when you’re having a good day, someone else may be having a dark day. Be supportive. Don’t forget to listen to those who are willing to open up and share.